I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness
and sorrow, for better or worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.

Let me light up the sky,
Light it up for you,

kelly.
21. 31st March.
Singapore - Hougang.
SIM - RMIT.

i am slow.
a daydreamer,
and i "stone" alot.

i like perfection.
love to laugh and make someone laugh.
the smell of hotcakes from mac is aphrodisiac.
coffee fuels me, and i make good spokesperson for Nescafe.
i have a weakness for ice-cream and jap food,
they never fail to make my day right.
green-tea flavoured food tempts my taste buds.
i love cold hard cash,
and i indulge in shopping for shoes, bags, clothes, watches and perfumes, all the time.
i live to club, and i can drink my guts out.

self-centered people irks the hell out of me
i don't like people controlling me and telling me what to do.

distance ran: 10km and counting.

its the birthday party week.

had fang's birthday celebration ystd (thurs)
shall post photos the next time

had Wenli's birthday party just now (fri)

and it will be Wei Chian's later (sat)

i am so busy and broke.

and its my granny's 80th birthday next weekend

one more thing, I TOOK OFF MY BRACES!!! WOHOO!!!

Jasmine called her the "bloody social smoker".

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how many setbacks can you get in a short period of time?

seriously, i am in a state of disbelief and shock.
so pardon me if i am talking incoherently these days,
i am just trying to accept the fact (or maybe it isn't)
but i believe my prediction is true.
i am not sad but just in total shock.

the other setback,
i am still in a state of confusion
i am not sure what's going on.

or rather,
everything that has happen is so confusing.

i am not sure what's going on in my life.

i am not sure what to believe and what not to.

i am just so shock and confused.

i am just so screwed up.

i think this period is the worse in my life and i have to pretend that nothing has happen.

quit asking me what happened cos' i can't explain
i can't put my thoughts together.
i just find things going too fast
and so unreal.

it felt like a meteorite crashed into my world when it is already in a very bad state.

my problem seem small when you see the big picture, my sorrows seem incomparable to others who had been through the worse. but it still cuts me deep.

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i'm sick.
like real sick.
i'm feeling the ache all over.
physically, and emotionally.

did that incident trigger it?
i think so.

i just wanna rest.
and not think about anything.


me and sam.


the promoters of Watsons. sam. evangeline. me


lucky i met her.


hideous.


how can u not love her?

it will be over. it will be.

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i knew it.
i knew i was right.

things are not what it used to be any more.

nevertheless, i'm glad.

i will always remember.

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i finally finally finally got my pay.
WOHOO! finally.
the stone in my heart just dropped and everything seems to brighten up.
CK one Summer 2008... Salvatone Ferragamo... here i come... !!!

HAHA.

i thought i can keng MC tmr.
but i think i am really sick le.
like the headache hasn't gone away.

i dun like working at J8 cos it stink so badly.
my promo booth is just beside the fish area.
and its god damn stinky.
constantly nauseating.

Veron's little girl is so so so so (i dunno how many times) cute.

i am missing Samantha.
how i wish she was working with me at J8.
HAHA.

shall post some photos soon.

Brightened, but...

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maybe i shld just stop thinking and get a life.
GET A LIFE. AND PROLLY FORGET WHAT HAPPEN OVER THE PAST ONE MONTH.

not feeling too well.

its the last day at Watsons tmr.
i'm going to miss Samantha cos' we clicked with each other instantly and we talk non stop. haa
i also gonna miss the Vitamin auntie, Michelle. she's good to talk to also.
and Carol, the "Yes To Carrots" girl. haa. Samantha calls her the China village girl.

i must just stop thinking about it.

its either i am thinking too much or things aren't the same anymore.

a level up? probably not.

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the tiny blood vessels around my eyes burst.
and there is small clots around the eye.
duh. but i still need to work.

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ah boon.
he is drop dead gorgeous.
and he is a hairdresser too.
not really a hairdresser but the asst for this super famous hairstylist.
Jaren... hmm... he's still good looking though!.

haha.
now i am willing to spend 65bucks for a haircut just to see him again.
HAHA.

MAY! Jaren is all yours!

i forgot my Hp today.
which left me feeling very insecure.
but its a good way to curb those urges to text
HAHA.

i'm missing those times.

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apparently, i'm still not dead.
HAHA.

super freaking tired.
i dread working!

hais. troubled by some stuff.
but then when you think about it, its nothing very significant to make me so troubled.
hais. i just feel so irritated.

i just wanna see "it" again. and that lyrics of the song keeps ringing in my head.

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was online ystd night, and i told myself i will blog something.
but then, i FORGOT!
~te.

anyway, my legs are going to break liao.
full 10 hours of standing, haha. i think i will have varicose veins soon.

Asience promo is over le, now its Liese Clear Cube Wax. Ladies, there will be a roadshow this Sat, Sun and Mon(Vesak Day). A super famous Japanese hairstylist (which i conveniently forgot his name) will be here to style your hair for absolutely FREE! YES, ITS FREE!! i onli know he is the disciple of Shunji Matsuo. so obviously, he is so darn good. haha...

okie. i gg for my breakfast and then it will be off to work.
no life. its always, work, home, sleep, work, home, sleep... ...
hais. money money come come.

when you're good, i just hope its not a dream.

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some photos over the past few weeks.


the red vespa


hk cafe night.


ah May. (she's angry with me now, over a guy! HAHA)


i don't know where is this place.


3 heads, 3 caps






the day i ate till i vomited. (the highest one is mine! - 11 plates)



if you cannot contact me, find my name in the obituaries. Haha.

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soon she can use sign language to communicate,
and i can only swear in sign language.

HAHA.

but i made her damn jealous today.
WOHOO!

that smirk on my face.

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我和你男和女都逃不过爱情
谁愿意有勇气不顾一切付出真心
你说的不只你还包括我自己
该不该再继续该不该有回忆让爱一步一步靠近
我对你有一点动心
却如此害怕看你的眼睛
有那么一点点动心一点点迟疑
不敢相信我的情不自禁
我对你有一点动心
不知结果是悲伤还是喜
有那么一点点动心一点点迟疑
害怕爱过以后还要失去
难以抗拒 oh
人最怕就是动了情
虽然不想不看也不听
却陷入爱里
我和你男和女都逃不过爱情
谁愿意有勇气不顾一切付出真心
你说的不只你还包括我自己
该不该再继续该不该有回忆让爱一步一步靠近
我对你有一点动心
却如此害怕看你的眼睛
有那么一点点动心一点点迟疑
不敢相信我的情不自禁
我对你有一点动心
不知结果是悲伤还是喜
有那么一点点动心一点点迟疑
害怕爱过以后还要失去
难以抗拒 oh
人最怕就是动了情
虽然不想不看也不听
却陷入爱里
我和你男和女都逃不过爱情
也许应该放心让爱一步步靠近

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it was bad, then good, now its somewhere in the middle.

i'm confused.

don't try to find comfort in food when you are not in a good mood, cos' i will make you even upset.
HAHA.

i puked and now i'm hungry again. oreos, here i come!

**Updates**
what to believe.what not to.
only when you become helpless, you will understand how i feel.

May, i am really ok.
not at my best but neither very bad.
at least i still can make u laugh. HA.
will be fine. Thanks.
and please kindly remind me how upset the stomach will be
when i say we are going to eat ourself poor with sushi. HAHA.

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i think it ended before it ever begin.

i hope i am wrong. but it felt so.

i felt the tingling sensation of pain. that cuts deep into the bones.
leaving you wincing in pain.

it was beautiful even when it hasn't begin.

i hope i am wrong. i'm just thinking too much.
but whatever the case is, its beautiful.
its better than never.

i hope i'm thinking a tad too much; reading too much into things.

when you start to believe those lies, it shows how pathetic and stupid you are.

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what am i doing at this hour?!
haha. woke up super duper early. (before 8am)
like once in a blue moon.

i need a hair cut... need to call Jaren
i need to buy sneakers...
i need new clothes...
i need perfume...

ok... all are wants other than the haircut...
ahaha.

call me pretty babe! LOL.

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i don't really like Tom Cruise
but i've got to admit that his daughter Suri look real gorgeous.

haha.
probably because she's got more of Katie Holmes genes.

swept off.

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i heard the most irritating conversation on the bus today.
this group of girls was talking about Rain.
they were saying how handsome he is... and stuff like that...
duh.

some more of Rain and i will give you thunderstorm!!!

HAHA

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got some time on hand now.
so am blogging something real long today; its gonna be very scattered and random though.

i also where to begin,
but all i can say that i've been like super emo for the past 2 weeks.
been through all highs and lows.
was like very happy in the beginning, then BOOM!, to the rock bottom, then up a little and then down again. anyways, its just roller coaster.
must be those stupid hormones and probably some things in life.
the song 不想懂得 made me cry.
like heaps of tears, which wet the bed and blanket.

have you wonder why you can get very silly at times.
like super silly.
well, i've been stupid all my life, so being silly is like a mild thing,
but these days, i am really getting moronic.
urghs.
doing very stupid things, and then asking myself why am i doing it.

turning real paranoid too.
i don't know why.
there's this fear in me which i don't know how to shake it off.
its been bugging me for a long time. and it makes me so afraid that something like the past will happen again.
RAH!
irritating.

gonna start work after the papers end.
and there will be less time for everything that i want to do.
time is really not on my side.

i'm begging, i'm praying.
for everything that is in my heart to come true.

the "ang gong gong" signing off.
(the post isn't that long after all)

at worlds end.

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she's the green shit.

and i'm "ang gong gong"

Burberry Summer.

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links.♥
jasmine
may
aili
veron
jun xiang
lydia
fang
elicia
shevon
sarah
jia hui
josephine
pei lian
the hip hippers

xiaxue
kenny sia
cheesie

Bryan Wong
Patrica Mok
Cruz Teng
Dasmond Koh
Pei Fen
Felicia Chin
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credits.♥
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