I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness
and sorrow, for better or worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.
i like perfection.
love to laugh and make someone laugh.
the smell of hotcakes from mac is aphrodisiac.
coffee fuels me, and i make good spokesperson for Nescafe.
i have a weakness for ice-cream and jap food,
they never fail to make my day right.
green-tea flavoured food tempts my taste buds.
i love cold hard cash,
and i indulge in shopping for shoes, bags, clothes, watches and perfumes, all the time.
i live to club, and i can drink my guts out.
self-centered people irks the hell out of me
i don't like people controlling me and telling me what to do.
distance ran: 10km and counting.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
i m a gone case. haha.
give me the motivation.
life never felt so crappy!
if you don't hear from me these days, prolly i'm dead.
i heard that song played just now. nostalgic. it makes me wonder how will things be now if what happened did not happen. all the "what-ifs" suddenly popped up in my head. but yes, i think i prefer what's going on in my life now. just that its so unavoidable to think about those "what-ifs".
have you realise the "IF" is in the center of "LIFE"?
at the end of the day, i will still thank god for letting what had happened happen. if not for it, i wouldn't be where i am today. i may not be as happy as i am now.
every pain is a lesson learned and a step towards happiness.
durian infested home. my mum and dad are eating durians. URGH! it stinks.
i am still so lethargic. the aftermath is real powerful. HAHA. my boy says i need more exercise. lol. the once a week routine is more than enough - clubbing. HAHA.
i shall skip clubbing this weekend. need a break. but i'll be back soon.
oh gawd. no motivation to start on projects which are piling up sky high. procrastinating as usual.
finally, the gathering i've been looking forward to. its been ages since we girls sit down and have a meal together. tonight is the night. but, will my boy make it? sometimes, NS really sucks. but ya.. it cannot be helped la. i can understand. i am not those nonsensical girl who will whine and whine. just pray hard.
club tomorrow. after that, i must really get down to work. haha. serious. lots of stuff to do. loads.
the aftermath is killing me. i am so drop dead tired. supposed to sleep now, but i remembered i still got work to do. damn.
its not a competition anymore. so what if i win, what matter most is - am i happy now? am i truly happy? yes. hopefully, i am making the right choice this time round.
photos. photos. photos. ystd night was hell lots of fun. party-ed till the lights were on. drank till we went high and dance till the legs went sore long island tea, Johnnie Walker Black Label and Vodka. lol
bar counter
this is good! the gang down-ed them within 15mins
my face and neck are red
high-high-high
the 4am face. bloodshot eyes.
and a very knocked out Eunice
new life.
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i love Johnnie Walker Black Label. lol.
i told Eunice that i am going to devote all my strength in my body to clubbing over the weekends le.
th dark knight was super duper ultra good. Christen Bale... the best actor for batman. (George Clooney dropped to the 2nd but he is still the sexist man alive. Lol!) Heath Ledger. he's the best Joker. its just so amazing to see him perform his role so well. (a pity he passed away) two-face... he's really really ugly. WoHoo! the best Batman series ever. but i was a tad too long. 150mins. my butt hurts. Ha
48 hrs to go... IT WILL BE A PARTY OF A LIFETIME! the adrenaline rush, that feeling of high. WoHoo! its what you cannot experience outside... its surreal, yet very real. its what i am born for... Lol. and yes, i'm addicted.
dirty secrets. and girl, thanks for being the keeper.
i swear i am gonna learn how to "count" cards. watched the movie "21" just now, and its an interesting movie. i am lazy to do a summary of the movie, so pls kindly read it for yourself here. LOL.
i am going to learn that counting card thingy and make millions. LOL. dream BIG. well, at least learn the rope of it and make small money during chinese new year if Vegas is a bit too far to earn those big bucks. but it seems like Vegas is a clubber's heaven. haha.
i am super hungry now. i am thinking cup noodles and ice cream. haha. grow fat.
sudden emo again. not because i was thinking again. i was reading this girl's blog, whose bf passed away in Brunei during NS training. i'm sure you have read about it before.
her words just cuts u so deep makes you feel like crying with her.
my sorrows seem incomparable. anyway, there isn't much sorrow to even begin with la. lol. (看开了,就也还好。做朋友也不错。)
its makes me feel that life hasn't been too bad on me.
i feel so sad for her. sometimes i wonder why god have to separate people from life and death. everything happen for a reason, but some reasons are unexplainable and unacceptable.
hopefully, she'll stay strong. its hard, but she's got to be strong. everything is just a phase, it doesn't last forever. but maybe some will. at least it may be less painful as time goes by.
The beginning of knowledge is the discovery of something we do not understand
the online tabloid says: Angelina Jolie gave birth to twins. a boy(Knox Leon) and a girl(Vivienne Marcheline). her babies name are always so damn cool. ha. Maddox, Pax, Zahara, Shiloh.
anyway, its none of my business if she gave birth or not. lol but she's so damn hot even when she's pregnant. Brad Pitt is the luckiest man in the universe. no wonder he divorced Jennifer Aniston. Opps! Jennifer Aniston is pretty too, but in a different league as Angelina Jolie.
Veron crown me the No.1 Shopper. HAHA. heys, feel free to call me if you need someone to shop with.
speaking of which, i need to spend money wisely. bombarded my bank account during GSS. so its time to put money back in. another reason... so that i can buy that bag, the other perfume, and more clothes during the year end sale!. haha.
but i am still glad to accompany anyone if you need shopping khakis. window shopping is still good, cos' it motivates me to save MORE! haha.
if only i had such motivation in studies.
hopefully, this weekend will be drown in pumping tempo and never ending alcohol. anyway, anyone going overseas or know where to get duty free alcohol please let me know.
*updates* May! you super funny la. ha. she msn me and asked if i wanna go Mac tomorrow after she read this entry. haha. i wanna go to world's end. not Mac. HAHA. but i know you meant well. thanks thanks. but come to think about it, you shld treat me well, cos' we are attached! haha. SHE'S MINE TO KEEP.
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i've quarreled with my mum again. actually it been going on for many days already.
things come in pair. especially bad ones.
i don't feel like saying any thing these days. just hide inside those blankets and let time just go by. its so stressful and suffocating to be at home but there is no where that i want to go. probably bring me to world's end.
its time for ice cream therapy! but F**K, there's no more ice cream.
its movie ystd night. i am glad people called me out at the right time, even though they've got no idea how important is it for me to get out and clear my thoughts.
anyway, "Wanted" is such a crap. haha. its entertaining but equally stupid. the stunts are way beyond believable and the ending is like D.U.H the only person that saved the whole show was Angelina Jolie. she's so darn H.O.T.
Eunice invited me to go with her to the NDP Preview which i think is really what i need now; to get away from everything that is troubling me.
its nice this year compared to the last year where the preview was really SUPER preview where everything was stimulated and the performance and visual effects were bare minimum. this year, we saw the contingent, and FIREWORKS! which was rather awesome.
the skyline of Singapore
monochromatic
sepia
the parachuters
this auntie super enthu.
the contingents marching in
NDP 08 formation.
the national anthem
the salute to Singapore
see that India guy on the screen, he's the President (stimulated one)
the black knights
a stunt which they performed, they are intersecting each other.
heart
the black knights salute
when night falls
the performance.
Singapore Flyer by night
the finale - 5 minutes to fireworks display
3 minutes to fireworks display
1 minute to fireworks display
BOOM!
the super grand finale.
the final national anthem and pledge taking ceremony
while waiting for the crowd to disperse
after the show, had steamboat at Bugis with Eunice and her cousin.
at least for a moment, i felt i lived. but then, it all came back.