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kelly.
21. 31st March.
Singapore - Hougang.
SIM - RMIT.
i am slow.
a daydreamer,
and i "stone" alot.
i like perfection.
love to laugh and make someone laugh.
the smell of hotcakes from mac is aphrodisiac.
coffee fuels me, and i make good spokesperson for Nescafe.
i have a weakness for ice-cream and jap food,
they never fail to make my day right.
green-tea flavoured food tempts my taste buds.
i love cold hard cash,
and i indulge in shopping for shoes, bags, clothes, watches and perfumes, all the time.
i live to club, and i can drink my guts out.
self-centered people irks the hell out of me
i don't like people controlling me and telling me what to do.
distance ran: 10km and counting.
Friday, July 4, 2008
previous posts are removed due to some personal reasons.
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i am not sure if u will still be reading this blog,
but all i've got to say is i am really sorry about what happened.
i see u more than a friend to me and its important that i want you to understand and hear me explain things.
i noe u are angry right now and prolly not want to see me ever again but i think u shld let me explain.
there is alot i want to say to you but u need to give me the chance to do so.
i am really sorry for what have happened. and i do owe u an apology upfront even if u may not think its necessary.
i dunno wad to say than sorry. and pls hear me out.
the bottom line is that i still see you more than just a friend and i hope i can really clear things up with you.
I AM SO SUPER SORRY.
updates:
i think you would not want to see me again,
and i may not have a chance to explain things out to u,
so am i doing so now. here.
but before i do all the explaining, i really want to say i'm sorry.
SORRY. i am very very sorry.
what i am gonna say below, is what i have never told anyone before.
it may come as a shock to many but in order to clear up things, i think i should say it.
firstly,
i am sorry for the comments my fren had made
but its not their fault as it was me who made them think in that way and they were just being protective about me.
as to why they are thinking that you were a "bad guy", was because of some things i told them. and this is where the whole thing comes in.
i am sure everyone around me knows about my story with Mr J.
which extended to a long 4 years of stupid waiting and all.
within that 4 years smth happened. (and its got nothing to do wif j, and at that time i've lost contact with him)
i've known this guy through the net, and we chatted for quite sometime. and yep, we became more than just frens. ... he wanted smth from me which i didn't give but we had some physical contact. and then he just completely disappear from my life.
ok. and i was used.
and because of this incident, i was thinking you would prolly do the same to me.
i thought i would never have to say this to anyone and i didn't want to because it was a very bad experience and because it isn't a very glam thing, but apparently under such circumstances, i have to.
anyway, i thought what happened to me in the past may be repeating itself again and thus i kinda of told my fren what happened and my worries. they may have thought that you have used me because of the way i've put things across to them.
i think i was being too subjective, by bringing what happened in the past to what happened that time. i am really sorry.
thats the best i can put it in words, but i was hoping i could tell u personally. but then circumstances didn't allow and the only way i could clarify things up with you is to do it this way.
i am really sorry for what happened and the misunderstandings. i was being to paranoid that the same thing would be repeating itself. i am really sorry.
you said we are still friends, but to me, you were always more than just a friend.
i hoped that after reading this you would drop me a sms. there are things which i wanna say to you but i don't think i can say it here. so if you have read this post, pls drop me a sms so that i could finish up saying wad i want to say. just give me a chance to say what i need to say, and after that, what you want to do about us, i respect your decision. but just give me the chance.
i am very sorry. very.
and to all my frens, i really appreciate your concerns and i think i will have to sort this mess out myself. i know as jie meis we have nth to hide from one another, but there are some things which i hope would remain as private as possible. now that i've said it out today and it may come to a shock to you, i am sorry.
i am sorry to my frens.
i am sorry to him.
i just sorry.
ps: pls drop me a sms after you finish with this post. i've got things to say which i think its better for me to say it in private. pls, i just need to say it.
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